17, producer/artist
this my fav color
this my soundcloud
as i grow older, i begin to understand that this life is so fragile. not even on some deep shit but deadass something can happen one day that can change your life in seconds. and that really scares me. i'm very grateful for the position i'm in, obviously not in music but in life. i've got a great support system behind me. i won't let them down. i love everyone that listens to my art and while it really is just trap beats with the occasional experimental song, i see my discog so much more differently than everyone else. (is that narcissistic to say?) wow. i got off track. whatever lmao all i wanna say is i appreciate all of the attention, even if you only listened once, i very much appreciate you and i hope you all are doing well. i haven't been recording as much because, as i've said before, life got in the way. i'm starting my senior year of highschool and while it's definitely going to be easy, i do want to enjoy it. i really don't wanna grow up lol
today is my favorite album's birthday, we buy diabetic test strips by armand hammer! i'm not gonna say this record changed my life but it certainly did change the way i listen to music and it showed me that boundaries can be pushed into places i never thought was possible. shoutout billy woods and E L U C I D for making such a masterpiece. super excited for the new record coming out with alc. anyway, i've been in school for a month and a half now and it's pretty light. i have only 4 classes i need to go to so i just chill a lot more nowadays. i've been off weed for about two months now, and i think i'm starting to feel better physically and mentally, even though i've still gone thru hell with some personal shit. weed was very fun for me up until the end of this summer where i could only think about if i was going to die off of 3 puffs of a joint. i felt so paranoid while high because, well, it's weed, and i was also very paranoid sober because of pains i was having around my chest and ribs. while i haven't gone to a doctor, i'm positive it was because of vaping, and that's also why i'm trying to quit vapes as well, but it's hard. the pains aren't here anymore though which is good. i haven't bought a vape in months though so i'm just leeching. better than inhaling metals all day, right? if you are reading this, i hope you're doing well right now and i have so much to show you, including an album that i'm so excited to finish. i'm not even halfway done, but i can already tell it's gonna be the weirdest and best work i've ever put out.
tonight i'm feeling okay, i think. i hope you are doing so good. things haven't been going my way recently, but i'm trying to find things to do, like hanging with bros, to keep my mind off certain shit. i really hate going on here all sad cuz who the hell gone read this and being all emo ain't gonna fix anybody's problems. i just have to thug things out until it gets better. and i know it will. this past week i've had like one day of school because of some conferences break, and i'll say i really needed that break. school isn't even hard anymore as a senior, but i really hate going there especially right now. it's just so full of hate and i dread walking back to the parking lot every day because i know there are people there that don't like me. my anxiety goes through the roof and i almost speed-walk out of the school. it's really not that deep though, it's not like they will say anything or try to do anything but it's just like... what if they do???